i miss the nights i stayed up late devouring books. little lauryn would beg me to turn out the light, and i would always reply "just one more chapter".
but really i'd just wait till she fell asleep and stay up longer.
i miss the days spent in the woods playing hide and seek with my friends.
i miss the nights i would stay up watching episode after episode of Lark Rise to Candleford.
i miss playing bionicles with matt. he would get mad because i kept trying to make the toa's go to ballet class instead of fighting the enemy.
i miss that cold feeling after stepping out of the pool and going inside.
or the first plunge into the freezing water.
i miss when we made movies just for fun.
i miss when my siblings were little.
the times we played hide and seek in the messy basement.
i miss how we use to run for cover whenever mom and dad ever uttered the words "time to clean the today'
i miss the hours we use to spend in front of the radio, listening to adventures in oddysey and coloring picture after picture.
i miss when we were young and spent hours outside building forts and making coffee out of dirt.
playing house over and over again.
the summer nights when i'd look over the uncut lawn listening to the crickets and watching the fireflies.
i miss when i didn't care what people thought of me. when every shirt and shorts matched, and bed hair was everyday hair.
i miss when i stayed up late journaling and only had fun happy times to report.
i miss my life before the internet.
i miss all the dreams i use to dream.
i miss being four or five and chasing frogs and butterflies all over the yard, and how daddy laughed when i'd catch them.
i miss life before screens. i miss being outside.
i miss the sunny spring days when i didn't have a care in the world.
the turkey sandwiches mama made us on hot summer days.
i miss that summer week when all we did was walk a few miles every night, spend hours on the computer, taking a million pictures of each other, bonfires every night, camping under the stars, racing to the dinner table and movies with the whole family.
i miss 'stupid' the lizard.
i miss the nights ash would let me stay up with her watching all her musicals.
i miss throwing my hair in a messy bun.
i miss when rusty could run free.
i miss our pool.
i miss my freedom before i started working.
i miss the fall nights matt and i'd chant the robin hood theme song as we watch another episode, a jar of nutella each.
i miss i miss i miss.